This is part quilting post, part personal. I got some bad news last week that my job was being eliminated, and everything I do would be moving to India. My target end date is January 1st, however if they don’t feel the offshore team is ready to take over, it could be longer but they will give me a 30 day notice once they are done with me. Then I will be given 8 weeks of severance, and I will be done with my current job.
I’m not a job hopper, in fact I’ve had 2 jobs in the past 20 years. It’s so difficult to describe how it feels, you worry about the future, paying your bills, finding something else. You grieve for your the loss of your job, the people you work with, that you spend all of that time away from your family with. You worry about losing the job that you liked, and were good at.
In many ways having time to plan is nice, but it’s also strange. You go into work and people look at you then realize you were laid off and then give you “the look”. The sad, “Hey buddy I’m sorry about your luck” look. Then people ask you your option on how a process should go, and you want to say, “don’t ask me I won’t be here.” Anyway, needless to say it sucks, and I’m working through it.
Which brings me to my next project, “I Like Big Bursts, and I Cannot Lie!” It all came about around the time I was let go, and I needed something else to focus on, and do with my time, other than worry about my future. I knew I wanted a large Lone Star, but knowing I had a project coming up that included making another large one with smaller strips, I decided to go for large 4 inch strip sets. Yes I know, BIG!! It’s only going to be one star, and I will send it on to my FABULOUS quilter Charisma to have her way with.
I need it to be CHEERY! Because I could use some cheer right about now. My original thought was to incorporate a swirl into the design. However I nixed the idea, as I needed something easy. Something I could kind of make on auto-pilot while watching shows on Netflix and just get into “the zone” That spot where you are only worried about lining up the seam, or keeping your fabric evening while sewing strip sets. I needed that zen I get when I’m sewing. So as a wonderful quilter once said “Quilting is my Therapy” And big shout out to Angela Walters for that quote. More accurately for me, “Piecing is my Therapy” however I’m sure the zen experience is similar.
So now I have an almost completed top, however I could only get 7 slices out of my strip sets, so I will assemble more tomorrow to get the final blade done. Then I will have to decide the background. I’m thinking, black, gray, or a black and grey batik…..something a little darker…or I could always just go for a crisp white. But I think one of the darker colors will work better.
So this will be the quilt, that helps me work through my issues, and hopefully return to my more cheerful self. It might not be next week, but I’m hoping it will be soon.